you and me a lesbian love story part 14

"YOU WHAT!?" Cami yelled, turning and looking at max as her and max walked to there next class.
"well its not like i meant for it to happen...i certainly didn't see it coming" max said, stopping in the hall. Cami stopped, turning, and looking at her.
"it was just a playful kiss right?...a caught up in the moment kiss...it meant nothing..right?"
"...right.." max said, her voice trailing off.
"ok then..so forget it and be done" Cami said, starring at her a moment, before turning and walking off.
right...just forget it and be done..forget it max...it meant nothing...just forget it. she stood there a moment, getting her barrings together before heading off down the hall after Cami.
History class was slightly awkward, just knowing Jordan was in the room. thinking about what happened. max wondered if Cami was right. wast it just a friendly kiss? was she reading into something that wasn't even there? but all the smiling and flirtations...just forget it max...forget it. she sat there a moment, again, getting her concentration back before opening her notebook and taking notes.
She avoided her the rest of the day. lunch, she made excuses to side on the other side of Cami, the farthest away. in class she made it a point to not look anywhere near that side of the room. and in the hall, she dodged her best she could, avoiding her at all cost. filling bad for doing it, but it had to be done. it was best they stay distance. was it? she made herself believe it was. The bell ringing signaled the end of school, she breathed a sigh of relief as she got up heading for her locker, maybe after a couple of days shed give up and leave her alone. coming to her locker she quickly threw her last class notebook and text in her locker, grabbing only what she needed for that night, trying to hurry as to not run into Jordan. she wasn't fast enough.
"do i do something?" the familiar voice sent max jumping, screaming slightly as she turned around facing her. she starred at her a moment before turning back to her locker.
"uh...no"
Jordan stood there a moment, arms crossed, watching her.
"then why the sudden avoidance"
"im just....got alot on my mind thats all" max said, slamming her locker as she turned to walk off
"you haven't said one word to me all day" Jordan said, turning in her direction.
"sorry, i just have alot going on, school, homework, ill see you tomorrow" max quickly said, her back to her still, she started walking off.
"wait...you expect me to believe..you cant say "hi" to me in the hall..or even look at me in class because of school?." Jordan said, a smurk on her face, arms still crossed as she shift to one side.
standing there with her back still turned, max stood there a moment before turning around.
"i have a fiancée..do you get that?" she said, looking up at her.
"yea..and?" Jordan asked, cockyness in her voice, a slight laugh.
"and you kissed me!" max said walking up to her.
"it was just a kiss" Jordan said, smiling at her. Jordan being so calm about the whole thing was really getting to her. max stood there a moment, looking down she shook her head.
"what?"
"i..i cant believe you..after all the you did..you can just be..so calm about all this!" max said, throwing up her arms as she paced back and forth.
"WHOA! .....chill!...again..it was just a kiss..nothing to get worked up over...and what do you mean after all i did?'
"ALL THE FLIRTING!...AND..SMILING ..AND WINKING!! YOU TELL ME THATS NOTHING!!?
"well lets see...on a sexual scale...kissing isn't really up there...now if i was to rape you or sexually assault you then yea..that would be something to get worked up about..but a kiss? come on now....seriously?...and the way i remember it..you embraced that kiss..so your just as much at fault her sweetheart"
"dont ever talk to me again" max said shaking her head as she turned walking off.
"oh! let me guess..your one of those fems..that will smile and flirt back with someone..but then when it becomes physical...you wont no part in it....so you run back to your little girlfriend, telling her this sap story, all because of a kiss that was blown WAY out of proportion to being with if you ask me, and has suddenly become a national crisis...speaking of which ..what DOES your girlfriend think of this..kiss.. thats supposedly turned the world upside down...cause really..honestly..people kiss people everyday...dont know if you've noticed..and i dont see no bombs going off anywhere...or people dying because of it!..so you'll have to excuse me while i see the humor in all this..really"
max stood there a moment starring at her. for once she was totally and completely speechless.
"its like your a totally different person..a sarcastic bitch"
"one would be an idiot not to be sarcastic when theres a girl staying infront of there face yelling and freaking out because of a kiss..
"IT MEANT NOTHING TO YOU!!?
"oh..whos coming on to who know?" Jordan asked, a slight laugh as she stepped back a little"
"it was a question"
Jordan stood there a moment, starring off to the side before looking back at her.
"what..you mean..do i think your hot ...or gorgeous..hell ya...but dont go turning the story around telling people i had you pinned against the locker and you had no other choice, you still had self control, all you had to do was push me back if you didn't want me to kiss you...but you didnt...did you?"
they stood there a moment, neither one saying anything.
"so..are you going to answer my question..whats your girl think about this?
"she doenst know"
"thats probably best...i mean..wouldn't wont to ruin a relationship because of a kiss..when we could all just forget it and move on"
max stood there starring a moment before walking off, this time Jordan didnt say anything. so it was her fault. Jordan was right, she did lean into that kiss, she didnt stop her and she clearly could have....but she was in love with Harley not jordan.she didnt even like jordan.did she? this is crazy max. of course you dont like Jordan. you just got caught up in a silly moment, thats all.
"yea...thats all" max sighed, sitting in her car, still in the school lot. she i tell Harley? it was just a kiss. no. i cant tell her. she wouldn't understand, heck i wouldn't understand if i were her.
"oh god this is horrible" she said aloud, putting her hands over her face as she burried her head in her lap. "what am i going to do"
10:30 PM
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Tuesday, June 02, 2009
part 15
"so..are you going to answer my question..whats your girl think about this?" "she doesn't know". max replayed her and jordans conversation over and over in her head that night as she lay in bed. Even when telling her seemed like the best thing to do, the right thing to do, she was scarred, scarred of what my become of it. she lay there a moment before picking up her phone and dialing harleys number.
"hey babygirl, i missed you today" harleys voice said over the phone. max smiled.
"i missed you to" her smile becoming a frown as she started thinking once again about the conversation her and Jordan had earlier.
"so peaches and cream..how was your day?"
"it was...it was great" max said, fake smile on her face. who are you trying to fool max.
"good to here babe,....so...your apparently not the only one swamped with work tonight, its still early...wanna call it a study night?"
max sat there a moment starring off.
"babe"
"yea..id...love to" max said softly.
"you want me to come pick you up?.."
"uh no" max said rather quickly. "no..its fine ill drive myself"
"ok..well..see you when you get here?
"...yea" max said, sitting there a moment before closing her cell. god, why couldn't she stop replaying that conversation, why couldn't she shake that filling, the filling telling her she needed..HAD to tell Harley but it wasn't that big a deal, infact it there wasn't a deal at all, so what was wrong with her. her worst fears were coming into play, she tried not to freak, but could help thinking..what if there WAS something there, what if she did fill something....no thats silly, you love Harley max, you love her, your engaged to her.
"fuck"
she sat there a moment, thinking, pondering, before grabbing her keys off the table and getting up. Walking though the living room and to the door, stopping, she stood there a moment. Slightly Turning and reaching back into her back pocket to grab her cell, flipping it open she dialed Priscilla number as she walked back into the kitchen.
"hello?"
"Priscilla"
"yea, WATS up..you ok?"
"yea..im fine..listen..do you have jordans number by chance?" max said grabbing a pieace of paper from the table and a pen.
"uh..yea..hold on a sec" Priscilla said. max could hear her going through the numbers.
"k..you ready?"
"yea" max said, bending over the table to write as Priscilla read out her number.
"ok thanks" max said said quickly, starting to hangup.
"hey..uh..why you need her number anyway?" darn it.
"i just need to ask her something ..thats all"
silence
"so ill talk to you tomorrow?" max said, anxious to hangup
"...i thought we were cool..?" Priscilla asked.
"what..we are cool"
"then why want you tell me whats really going on"
" because nothings going on"
"oh great..now your lieing to me..some friendship we have here..you want even talk to me about whats going on"
"i already told you nothings going on!"
"oh really?...thats not what Cami said"
"oh so suddenly my business is everybody else's business to?"
"were your friends max"
"ok..yea..you say that now....but you talk behind my back..whats next...you'll call me a slut"
awkward silence.
"if it helps..i know how you fill...i know what your going though that is....doing something because your swept up in the moment...and afterwards you wonder...why the hell did i just do that?...you start to wonder whether telling is the best thing,.... or if the best thing is just keeping it quit...."
"so...what did you do?" max asked after a moment
"it doenst matter what i did...what matters is that you listen to what your hearts telling you to."
"yea..thanks" max said.
"no problem..ill see ya tomorrow" Priscilla said, a click as she hung up.
"yea" max said closing her phone. she stood there a moment before opening it back up and calling Harley after four rings she answered.
"babe, were are you? ..you ok?"
"yea..i..i haven't left yet...theres something i have to do first"
"ok, well ..you know ill be up..so come on when your done"
"Harley i love you"
"i love you to babe"
max smiled. "see you soon?"
"hope so"
"ok..bye" mas said closing the phone. she sighed you dont have to do this max. but i have to know. i need to know. god, why must i constantly wrestle with myself. max thought squirming as she walked back and forth past the kitchen table. fuck just do it all ready.
Opening up her cell once again, starring at it moment, before hesitantly dialing her number.
one ring. two. three. four. she was starring to rethink things. maybe she should just leave it be. she wasn't answering the phone. maybe it was a sign
"eh, wuz good" the all to familiar voice sounded over the phone. caught off guard max stood there a moment.
"...ello?"
"Jordan?"
"...yea?....max?"
"Jordan we need to talk"
"howd you get my number dude?"
"never mind that ..we need to talk"
"...sure..how about lunch tomorrow"
"no..i need to speak with you now"
"whats the emergency" Jordan asked. max caught sound of a slight snicker in her voice, she rolled her eyes.
"look..i just ....need to talk to you..we need to talk..please"
"your not with your girl?"
"im going over there later tonight..look..that doesn't matter..we really need to talk"
silence a moment.
"uh..huh..and whats so important..that it cant wait until tomorrow..ESPICALLY after you got all up in my face earlier today practically cussing me out telling me to never talk to you again"
"im sorry about that ok..i..i just have alot on my mind...and we just meet somewhere please"
"..yea..sure...how bout here"
"wheres here?"
"my house"
"NO!"
"and why not?...scarred i might rape you or something?". and now the sarcasm comes.
"and that right there is the reason i said to never talk to me again"
"my bad..its just who i am..take it or leave it man..."
awkward silence yet again.
"are you coming or not"
"if your house is the only place"
"look..you the one wanting to "talk" so bad..i think you'd be willing to come just about anywhere..if its so important"
"whatever"
"..you got a pen?"
"yea"
"you know were Lawrence st. is at?"
"yea"
"go down that road, and im three on the right"
"third on the right...k. got it" she said closing the phone as she grabbed her things and headed out the door